Forever loving her x3

Wednesday, October 29, 2008;12:53 PM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

Ahh... Time passed fast eh... This week + plus week is uber boring enrichment programme for sec 3 only -.- Its like so sian la, other sec already holiday den we still need to come school .. For no reason, i was coughing like mad dog ytd afternoon, cough until sore throat. It got better after i gaggle my mouth with salt water(traditional method to cure sore throat lols). Tot im gonna be fine already, BUT NO!.. In the night, i felt pain in my nostril, dam sore. Intend to play till 2am , but decided to rest for the day @ 12am thanks to the excruciating pain. As usual, grandma woke me up @ 6am.. Somehow i wasnt able to move. After few minutes of struggling im finally untangled from my blanket( LOL, i sleep unti, kena tie up by blanket). The pain in my nostrils got worse, and worse still my head felt like 2tonne weight... Dam headache. I felt that something was wrong when i noticed the breath coming out of my nose is so dam effing hot ( like dota Dk dragon form spraying fire ! ). I went to take temperature, and gosh its 40degree -.- I have no idea if it is considered fever, thus i msged EDMUND, who confirmed it is high fever. So, told my grandma i'll be going to polyclinic to see doctor.. Her reply was : Da bai ani kuan, da bu si mai ke ou tng ( always like dat, always dun wan go sch).. Den we "friendly-quarreled" for a few minutes, and i won of course xD. So.. Went out of home, took bus to hougang mall and withdraw money, took bus to Hougang Polyclinic.. And you noe wad? ITS EFFING UNDER RENOVATION ~.~" . I went to the front entrance, and luckily there wrote : Free Shutte Bus to temporary Polyclinic.. The shuttle bus came, i boarded(duh). After reaching, im like so shocked due to the fact that, the temporary polyclinic is located @ IMH(mental hospital).. Thinking in my mind, if it will be inauspicious... But heng la, never see siao langs xD, if not sure chua sai. Wad awaits me was long waiting cum queueing. Luckily i brought my earpiece along hahas. Then the stupid doctor, i dunno shuld call her stupid or joker. I told her my nostril dam sore, den she keep asking got flu anot, which i told her many times i no flu... And you noe wad? She gave me running nose medicine -.- Bo bian i zitao lan lan.. Go all the way to IMH for running nose medicine ~.~ dam joke la. After which, went back to hougang mall to pay my internet bill, wanting to shun bian buy 10 year series but it was out of stock ISLANDWIDE... Headed to Kopitiam to have my breakfast, a bowl of Ban Mian, finished only like 1/3 of it cuz no appetite. And here i am home sweet home blogging today's entry...

Not noeing why, but my feeling for her has depleted. Not so crazily liking her like wad i did before.. Its weird tho, i wasnt able to get her out of my mind for like.. the past 2 years and 10 months.. Only till 2 days ago... After reading "someones" blog, and *poof* there goes the feeling. It might good too, as i think they are destined to be together. Hmms... =(
Edit : Wtf is wrong with this world la.. Why issit her.. omg... Im now in a confusion.. my feeling for her has already depleted, but why after noeing IT, i still feel so heartbroken =(

And BELINDA! Do you noe that you yesterday took away my 第一次? =(
~~第一次坐那么近女孩子~~

To Velda : Hi and thanks happy girl =)
To Belinda : hahs update liao =)

Labels: Wat3rInHell~ faded love ~

Wednesday, October 22, 2008;11:42 PM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

Guessed what! Okay i must say that it is a miracle. A miracle happened on me todae. Im getting promoted to Sec 4 Express! Im like.. So So So So Happy, the happiness is beyond words that can be used to describe. Okay , basically went to school todae with a very heavy feeling. Stopped halfway and gave myself a few seconds to think clearly. Should i go to school, should i not go to school?.. I chose to go to school in the end, as i think it would be less hurtful to face the fact earlier, isnt it. Familiar school hall felt so different, felt like im a stranger to this place. I went in. I saw familiar faces( Edmund,Nicholas,Shuo Feng, Belinda, DengJu, BeeKuan), but hesistated to get close. Gathering all my guts, i went forward and greeted them via waving. A feeling, within me, made me clueless. I was in a heavy mood, BUT WHY THE EFF I KEEP FEELING THAT LAUGHTER IS BURSTING OUT OF ME.. Im so totally clueless, but i just felt like laughing out loud. Time to time, during the stupid police talks, i was laughing to myself for no reason. I tot im going crazy.. Suddenly, i felt someone tapped my shoulder. It was my FT, Miss Jolene. "Don, next year you will be retaining", Hellnote Stamped on my head. And once again i fell in dilemma. The next remark Miss Jolene gave, made me fall deeper into dilemma. What she said was : " No lah, You promote." And she turns and walk away.. Edmund,Belinda and Shuo Feng was like : OMG! DON! YOU PROMOTE!... They were on cloud nine. But, i was still in dillemma. What did FT's few sentence meant? What does she mean by i will be retaining and i will be promoting? If i am promoting, am i promoted to Sec 4 NA or Sec 4 Exp..? Again, i probbed. Programmes in the hall ended. Along the way back to class, i was still pondering over the same question, over and over again. Until, i could not tahan anymore. I sms`ed FT, hoping she would clear my doubts. I waited patiently for her reply.. *bzz bzz* Phone vibrated. Hastily, i pull out my hp and read the sms. I HAVE BEEN PROMOTED TO SEC 4 EXPRESS! I was in joy and tears. Congratulatory phrases from brothers and frens felt so warm, just like home. I floated to cloud nine. It felt like, i kena hospitalized, and suddenly, i tio 4D 1st prize 100big 100 small! And yeah, that was school todae. I went home, EDMUND came to my house to play my comp. I decided to give my grandma a surprise. I acted EMO @ the coffeeshop demanding her to give me house key and head home. After awhile, she came home. I fake fake bluff her i retained. And hug her, saying : I PASSED. She was so so happy, hug and pecked me on the cheek. Ok i think i must stop here for now, i've left out quite a few things, as i need to off my laptop ASAP due to the fact that a very foul burning smell is coming out from it...

To Edmund,Belinda,ShuoFeng,Nicholas bro, Jialing mei , and all those hu stood by me, enlighten me. Thanks for all the enlightments given, thanks for staying by me not letting me fall deeper. I think the best and the only word i can think of is a BIG THANK YOU!. <3

Labels: Wat3rInHell. OMG MY COMP INSIDE TIO BURN =(

Tuesday, October 21, 2008;3:23 AM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

I've fallen.. Thx to the fact im gonna retain.. Its a hard crash even though i, myself clearly noe that i did not fare well in school... Encouragements from fren(u all) made me fall into huge dilemma. I don't noe how am i gonna reply you all... Infact, family too, i dunno how to convers wit them like i use to...haiz..

If theres a chance that i get promoted to sec 4 exp. I would change. Whats the point of saying this, theres no If.. Ah wadever.

Whats the biggest fear of your life? I think i've found mine. Losing all the confidence to face frens and family... Its a very very scary thing.

Nonetheless, Thanks for all the encouraging words. I think thats all i could say.

To Ed : Its ok thanks.

To Emilia : Yeh, thanks.

To Nic Bro : Nah nvm. Thanks.

To Belinda : Thanks. Its ok for the invading part. And.. nothing to say ler. Thanks.

Labels: Wat3rInHell... Nothing to say...

;1:57 AM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

DON! DON! :D
Im so nice.
I help you update.
Anyway, i know any form of consoling isnt gng to make you feel better but i seriously hope you could think it all over. Retaining might not be a good choice but it is definitely better than your quiting sch okay.

Stop thinking that you had disappointed everybody because we are not disappointed. It is your life that you are leading now, not mine, not anybody's else. Do the thing you think is right. But it is certainly NOT QUITTING SCH, okay. You know how many times i actually tried to convince you not to quit sch if you have to retain. Be like me, retain jiu retain. It only means giving you a second chance to prove that you can make it. You know how much your ah ma teng you, so why not try giving yourself a second chance? Im sure you wont regret. At least you are not alone. You still got OCC to pei you.

Dont worry, because retaining doesnt mean you lose all your friends. You still have me, edmund, sf, nich, many many others. You dont have to put a strong front because we are your friends. If you cant even be yourself infront of us, how are you gng to tahan. Im sure it will be hard. So be yourself in front of us okay.

OHwell. Hopefully i did make you feel better. You let me be one of the author and i took advantage of it. Hahah. Dont blame me lah okay? Takecare. :D

♥BELINDA!♥

Labels: WE WILL BE HERE FOR YOU FOREVER. TRUST US. :D

Friday, October 17, 2008;12:50 PM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

I've disappointed everyone hu loved and trusted me.. i've let them down... I'm sorry.. I no theres no point crying over spilt milk.. But i just felt sad...I was asked to meet my FT afterschool. She told me to make up my mind by monday.To retain Sec 3 Express, To drop to Sec 3 NA, or to promote to Sec 4 NA... My heart broke the minute i heard dat... I cant face my friends... I had to put on a hard front.. Their console made me felt worse.. My tears almost broke out... But i manage to hold it back... I saw my grandma... I almost cried out... I hardened myself.. i dun dare to tell her... i want to cry.. but i dun dare... here i am now in my room... weeping like dog... no point.. wads the point of crying... relli no point..

Labels: Wat3rInHell Gone.

Saturday, October 11, 2008;4:21 AM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

Felt so effing moody the whole effing day... So friggin tired... Totally moodlesss... Was dotaing, all of a sudden i felt so paranoid... No idea why, but paranoia strike me...Making my mood even more unstable.. Haiz, so confused now... Well, since im feeling so paranoid, why not i make use if it huh... Ok here goes, I always wanted to know wad others think about me. Use a word/phrase to describe ME.. Please dun use word like fat,ugly,buibui,useless... as i already noe all this...>< Just use your own word to describe wad you think of me(characteristic/personality.)... Well, Imma looking forward to all y`all comments bout me =)

To Berry : 0.0 Hi, you are?

Labels: Wat3rInHell signing off ~my brain is like rojak-.-~

Friday, October 10, 2008;2:55 AM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

Todae we took our chinese and art exam... Chinese was as usual easy, yet insufficient time given LOL... Cuz i always write alot... until not enuff time for behind d.... but oh well just nice do finish ... Shuld be able to get at least a B? Art was quite... easy also since ytd i've already done my final work, so todae wad i was needed to do is just simply copy the final piece again and colour it... Simple isnt it.. But u try doing this simple task with a bad bad flu... Running nose till like Water fountain -.- feel like sai lor... But , heh 3 hours, just nice for me to complete it.You might be wondering why am i up so late. CUZ IM BECOME GUAI KIA LER! Im actually taking my chem text book out, going to lead portal to mug my chem man.... lols actually im just copying blindly =.= Too sleepy edi, i think tml go sch chiong memorise... Basically thats wad happened todae, oh wait.. i will be uploading a music video in awhile's time... Saw it in forum, and it caused me a emotional wreck man. 1 single song, made me cried for like half an hour den stop siol...This song totally depicts my life sia, only difference is that my grandma is still by my side... Well , enjoy the video... Until next time....~~~ xD

Lyrics + translation for this song.

在細漢的時陣　阮阿嬤對我尚好

When i was young, my grandma would treat me very good　

甲尚好的物伴攏會留乎我

She would leave all the good things for me

伊嘛定定帶我去幼稚園看人在七桃

She would bring me to the kindergarten to watch kids play

看人在辦公伙兒　看人在覓相找

see people work

伊定定跟阮說　叫阮著要好好仔讀冊

she always ask me to study hard

嘸通大漢像恁老爸仔這麼狼狽

not to be like my father, useless

在彼個時陣　阮攏聽攏嘸

when i was small, i didn't listen

阿嬤　你到底是在講什麼a

h ma, what are you talking about

大漢了後　才知影阿嬤的話

when i became older, than i realised what you're saying

我會甲永遠永遠放塊心肝底

i will always remember what you've told me

想可一步一步的過去　定定攏會乎人真難忘時間一分一秒塊過去　在阮的心內定定攏會想到伊

as time passes, you will always be deep in my heart

阿嬤你今嘛在叨位　阮在叫你你甘有聽到

where are you now ah ma, can you hear me

阮的認真甲阮的成功你甘有看到

all my hardwork, can you see it

阮在叫你你知影沒

i'm calling for you, do you know that

阿嬤你今嘛過的好麼　甘有人塊甲你照顧

how are you living your live in the other world

希望後世人阮擱會凍來乎你疼　

i hope in my next life, i can be your grandson again

作你永遠的孫仔

be your grandson forever

擱叫你一聲「阿嬤」

To once again call you : ah ma.

Labels: Wat3rInHell signing off ~ NeedKissHer i miss you dip dip.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008;1:08 AM Y

And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3

Heh its been long since i last post eh... Was lazy.... Another lame excuse would be : EXAMS has started.. lols.. im so failing like hell man... todae's physics exam was a disaster... If only i studied ytd instead of dotaing, i would be able to answer the questions.. haiz... if only this if only dat.. roar i go die better man lols... tml is Maths paper 2 only. DnT students needa continue staying tho =P... Well maybe tml cant touch comp liao, needa do my Art work if not thursday der art exam GG... lols.. TML NEED BRING CALCULATOR omg lucky i just remember lol... so.. oh well imma gonna go pack my bag now... tataz...

Please don't ignore me
As you are hurting me
I dun hope you would accept me
But please don't stop me
For having one sided love
Is all i ask

Love is in the air
But it isnt always fair
Some gets the better share
While others don't even get a strand of hair
I do love you deep deep
I doubt you would even care

Senseless isnt craziness
Craziness isnt sadness
Sadness isnt happiness
Happiness isnt selfless
Selfless is my devotedness
Selflessly devoting myself to always be there... =)

Lolmao sudden urge to type out all that for no freak reason ... KKTHXBYE

Labels: ~, Wat3rInHell signing off ~shuld i give up.. shuld i not