Wednesday, June 23, 2010;11:12 AM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
While walking past the same old block, my heart sank for a moment. I noticed the stone chair sheltered by the familiar bus stop. A faint shadow appeared to be sitting there, it was a girl. She was looking down on her phone, a earpiece was plugged into it. She was listening to musics as usual. By now i'm very sure it was my hallucination again. In my imagination, she raised her head smiling, and waved. That warmed smile of hers, it never fails to melt me down to puddles of water. Even though it was just my imagination, it felt real. You were always there on that sit, smiling and waving to me when i arrive (alright, i'm always late -.-). I walked away, i understood what had just happened. I still miss you. I don't know why, i know i've already done what i've possibly could to forget you. I really couldn't understand why am i still hallucinating. Walking past the bus stop as i took out my cigg, i pondered for a moment. All of a sudden i recalled a promise that i've promised you : " Okay i promise you i won't smoke for no reason". Then i noticed i have had broken that promise for god knows how many time. Little wondering if you still remembers it, or would you even remember who i am? Its true that i have to let go the past, what's not mine could never be mine. But i simply just can't forget you. Sighs. On a side note, I'm sure you're not happy at all. I fail even as a friend. Despite knowing you're down and upset, i did nothing for you. For the past few days i've been wondering over and over again. Should i text you? Should i add you back on msn/ facebook to chat with you? Is there seriously anything that i can help to make you feel better? I want to, i really really want to help. But i seriously don't know what i can do. Words ain't gonna get through you. I don't mind wasting my time to spend hours to think of preaches that'd help you once again, but will it work for now? I'm in complete dilemma, I'm like a complete retard... I really wish for your smiles to be true and heart warming once again. I don't wish to see a couple of swollen eyes, Please... Labels: Wat3rInHell signing off ~ GPMixiuMixiuTTM
